Monthly Archives: January 2012

mythical categories

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I love the I Ching and this year I have taken it upon myself to give all of my friends I Ching readings for the New Year.  Every time I do a reading for someone else it might as well be for me.  In fact, I started wishing that all of my friends were at all of my friends readings because they always relate to everyone.

The I Ching is actually the first binary code because it takes two lines, and yin line and then a yang line and then explores all of the possible combinations.  In this way it forms a map like the topoi map of the ancient greeks (the basis of modern flow charts) showing non-linear relationships between events.  All things change into something else.  What it changes into is profoundly influenced by how we are relating to our present moment.

Ah, the present moment.  SO much more on that topic, later.

One of my favorite readings was about a sojourner exploring the four hidden worlds.  When I read it I felt an instant connection to the idea of sojourning.  I could look out into my sphere of people and guess who was sojourning and who was in a more public phase or some other phase of life.  When I recognized another journeyer, I felt an instant kinship.  All of this made me think of “mythical categories.”

Tolle says we have this world of forms and we have the kingdom of heaven, which is no forms, space, awareness, consciousness.  Mythical categories is the first “thing” I am putting into my empty space.  Once I became aware that I am on a sojourn into the 4 hidden realms, I felt instantly connected with all others on the same journey.  That connection is formless but the energy of it is highly structured and specific.  It is like a web we are all a part of that connects us with the same stream of information.  That allows us to recognize each other and organize the information we are receiving.  Another mythical category is “the Zone” that athletes experience when they bypass thought and tap into the intelligence of the body to guide their movements.  And there are so many others.

It really is the power of the Mind.  Richard Freeman says we have to use the same ground we have fallen on to get ourselves up.  The crazy mind place of stories and ego entrenchment is one side of the coin, and this incredible connection and organization is the other.  This is our “chitta” mind and the One Mind.  The One Mind gives us access to knowledge far greater than what we could know through just our life experience.

If you read my first blog entry ‘zone of convergence’ and Tera’s comment, she says first you recognize your limitation, in this case it was my disorganization, and then you give it over to be corrected. The One Mind is the place that holds that ‘correction’ or the perfection of being organized, so it has really already been done for me.  All I have to do is listen for it and let it become my current state of being.  Awesome.

Big hug to all of you sojourning (and all of you not.)

 

 

this is my story

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I have a perfect story.  If I told you, you would be engaged immediately and take my point of view.  I could easily convince you that I have been wronged and we could spend hours or years talking about all of the parties involved and their various roles.  You would have sympathy for me when I described the awful physical sensations I would get from the stress of it.  We would see the good and bad in each person, just to be more evolved in our approach, and then we could analyze all of the dynamics at play.   We could even have  a fit of compassion by talking about how the perpetrators were once victims and are just replaying their own wounded past.   You could bring up all of the relevant material in your life and how it relates to your story.  In the end, we would feel the satisfaction of having gotten to a deeper understanding of things.  We might even feel like we organized it somehow because we can now see the underlying patterns.  At any rate, we’ve become fast friends.

At one point, one of my friends tried to convince me that it was all me.  If I worked on just my part in it everything would change.  I clearly explained to her that that was not possible because in my story, I am not even the key player.  I am more like an innocent bystander being affected by the actions of others.  Plus I have been doing internal work on it for God knows how long and it doesn’t change them.

But here’s a funny thing:  as long as I was telling a story of betrayal, I kept manifesting betrayal.

One day in spite of my ego, I caught the wisdom of disengaging from the story completely.  I realized that stories were like brambles and thickets.  Instead of coming to a better understanding, things were getting more and more convoluted, to a point where no part of it made any sense at all.  So anytime I started to tell it, (mostly to myself by now because my friends were exhausted) I would reel my mind back to ground zero, to nothing, just an empty space.  And I would tell my empty space story instead.  And then suddenly one day after months of this practice, the old story began to change.  Mean people were playing nice and I no longer felt caught up in it at all.

Shortly after that, an old friend visited.  He wanted to be filled in on the details.  As I was speaking I felt all of the same physical sensations I had when I was entrenched in it.  Later,  one of the key players acted out again and then I got into an argument with another over all of the same old stuff from the past. Just telling the story, even though I was getting to the happy ending of how things had changed and how I had learned to let go, activated all of the old material and woke from the dead all of the same dynamics, as if they had never left.  WOW!

My good friend asked me:  Why did you tell that story?  It is not your story anymore.  

Please don’t ever tell that story again.